Friday, September 17, 2010

Let's Share! -- Fear and Excitement

This week has been a whirlwind of activity and changes for me. I've hardly been able to sleep as my mind has just been going, going, going like a mini-Energizer Bunny. Yeah, I'm going with the cliche there, it's a little early in the morning for me to be too creative.

Anyway,the beginning of the week was just busy enough to wear my girls out (who knew that could actually happen--I didn't). It also included discovering a hole in the ceiling that was caused by a water leak, which maintenance can't come fix until next week. Grrrreeeeaaat.

Then the phone call came.


"I got orders today." (It's hubby on the phone)

"What? For where?"


"Are you kidding me?" (Not the shriek of excitement)

That's not exactly how the conversation went, but it's the basics. That's right. We're on orders for Hawaii.

Now, when I first heard this, I freaked out. I was going to have to leave my friends (which I just started making some new offline friends through PWOC and church), my ACFW writing group--not to mention going to visit family wasn't going to be a feasible option more than once or twice while we're over there. Lots and lots of bad thoughts running through my mind.

I put out a plea on Facebook and Twitter for prayer assistance from friends and family. Boy, did they pull out the stops for me! What a blessing! I spent the rest of the evening and well into the night researching the area where we'll be (poor kids, they're so neglected sometimes)and learning about what it takes to move to a place like that. All that did was add to my freak out.

Then I felt a pulling. A soft voice, if you will. I needed to go do my Bible study for the night. This time a mental "Are you kidding me?" came. HellooOOooo...I just found out I'm moving very, very far away and I need to what? But the voice wouldn't leave me alone. So, being the obedient if somewhat begrudged child of God, I sat down and had my quiet time.

As you know, I've been going through Experience God with my PWOC Bible study group. The lesson was Day 1 of Unit 4, and part of it was to read Gen. 22:1-18, which is the story of God telling Abraham to sacrifice his son as a burnt offering, but then at the last minute, God provides a ram and commends Abraham for his faith. So, in the context of the lesson, it was emphasizing Abraham's willingness to walk by faith, even though he obviously didn't want to kill his son, and then how God provided for Abraham.

I just sat there nodding my head. Yep, God, I get it. I hear ya loud and clear. We're going to Hawaii, and You must have great plans for me. I just have to be willing to follow and put my trust in You.

I woke up yesterday morning light as feather. We were going to Hawaii! I was excited for all the wonderful experiences we'll have, the things we'll get to see. Yes, sad about leaving all my friends and plans, but trusting that God was putting us in Hawaii for a reason.

What about you? Have you ever felt equally excited and fearful about something in your life?


  1. Always when it comes to the military and moving. I always try to find the positive in anything that comes our way. There are way to many negative people who feed into your fear and leaving you not enjoying something that could be wonderful.I always look at a pcs move as a new chapter. Your life can be filled with many wonderful things if you let it. Good luck with you move and if you need anything just ask. hugs.

  2. Sorry to be shallow here, but HAWAII!!! Wow - that's fantastic!! How many people would just LOVE a vacation there. It's gorgeous and the weather's great. I know it's tough to move - but that comes with the military territory.

    This is a great new adventure and I think you're going to love it. Just remember that the cup is half full, not half empty. :-D

  3. Coming to Texas for college, going on my first mission trip last year... The biggest one was going to New Mexico this summer. Leaving friends, a job (though I came back to it), missing out, just... all these things. But, it worked out AMAZING. Huge spiritual growth, amazing second family of friends, and you know... a boyfriend. :P Hebrews 11:1... embrace it. You should (in your "spare" time) read some of my last few blogs. God's really been teaching me about stepping out in faith. :)

  4. Hawaii!! Have fun; God is surely ordering your step.


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